I continue to feel lingering effects from my jury duty experience. What surprised me the most was the fact that I was so unprepared for this experience. Afterall, I did jury duty in another county before. Of course, in the earlier jury summons, I didn’t know I was a multiple. at that time. As a result of that, if I reacted to something, the switch was happening effortlessly and without me knowing it.
There has been lingering anxiety from that event, which prompted an additional anti-depressant medication.
Recently, I was talking to my massage therapist/life coach about the court drama. After talking to her, I realized that my intense reaction was from the idea of being the center of attention. In the past, I have absolutely detested the idea of being the center of attention.
I realized that once being called from the audience seating area (now a jury seating area), I felt all eyes on me. My hands were trembling, which is nothing new, but this seemed excessive. I gave the officer my form and proceeded to the jury box.
I don’t know right now why being the center of attention is so frightening.
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