The last time I went to the dentist was some time before the pandemic, which evidently started in 2020 (I think someone told me that). I had been religiously gone 2x a year to get my teeth cleaned and an occasional filling done. During the beginning of the pandemic, my dentist decided to stop practicing.… Continue reading A New Dentist
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The Evolution of Family Visits
When it came time for me to go to college, I went to an in-state college a little over an hour’s drive from my hometown. I rarely went home. My twin brother, who went to the same college, was home almost every weekend. One reason was probably to see his girlfriend, and another to have… Continue reading The Evolution of Family Visits
Mother’s Day & Father’s Day
Mother’s Day has come and gone. I had no issues there. My mother has been long enough that that day does not bother me anymore. The one interesting thing about my mother’s death I actually was a little upset, which actually surprised me. I was not prepared for that reaction. Her death was rather sudden,… Continue reading Mother’s Day & Father’s Day
Can I Get My Body Back?
Not long after I moved to the state I currently live in, I was living with these “hippies”. It was a weird situation and all, but that’s another story. At any rate, I was in the kitchen of this “house” (yet another story!) and I remember the electric stove being there and it had been… Continue reading Can I Get My Body Back?
What Happened to the Castle?
Once I became aware of the castle, it wasn’t my intention of doing anything to alter the building in anyway. It kept them safe and hidden for a long time. The time spent with the therapist was important, but the healing really began once I started working with my massage therapist. I agonized over how… Continue reading What Happened to the Castle?
Inside with the Alters
When the alters first began coming out and talking to the therapist we had at the time, I was not aware of who they were, what they were saying or how long they’d been out. There was no memory, just a blank spot with no idea how much time had passed. As time went on,… Continue reading Inside with the Alters
Peter
Peter is the 7-year-old alter. I remember that it took quite a long time before he felt safe enough to come out on his own. There would be times in early therapy that Peter would “peek” out. I wasn’t aware of it, but my therapist could tell. Evidently, there was some look in my eyes… Continue reading Peter
More on my Revelation
As I stated before, I was walking down the driveway to my car early one morning to go to work, when I suddenly realized I felt safe. It’s always dark at that time, no matter the time of the year. I don’t think I’ve ever truly felt safe in my life. So it was a… Continue reading More on my Revelation
An Unexpected Revelation
I’ll get back to alters and the body in another post, but I had this major revelation earlier this week. When I lived in the Midwest, my parents lived one state over. There was a distance of about 500 miles between us, about an 8-hour drive. I did not feel completely safe there, since my… Continue reading An Unexpected Revelation
How My Body Changes When the Others are Out.
Right now, there are several main alters: a 7-year-old boy along with his protect protector, who is in his early to mid-twenties. He is around 6′ 2 inches, maybe slightly taller, very strong and muscular. He is much stronger and taller than me. Don’t ask me how I know this, I just do. I haven’t… Continue reading How My Body Changes When the Others are Out.