When the alters first began coming out and talking to the therapist we had at the time, I was not aware of who they were, what they were saying or how long they’d been out. There was no memory, just a blank spot with no idea how much time had passed. As time went on,… Continue reading Inside with the Alters
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Peter
Peter is the 7-year-old alter. I remember that it took quite a long time before he felt safe enough to come out on his own. There would be times in early therapy that Peter would “peek” out. I wasn’t aware of it, but my therapist could tell. Evidently, there was some look in my eyes… Continue reading Peter
How My Body Changes When the Others are Out.
Right now, there are several main alters: a 7-year-old boy along with his protect protector, who is in his early to mid-twenties. He is around 6′ 2 inches, maybe slightly taller, very strong and muscular. He is much stronger and taller than me. Don’t ask me how I know this, I just do. I haven’t… Continue reading How My Body Changes When the Others are Out.
The Body and Different Personalities
When I was working in a lab type of setting, I had to lift the full glass water bottles. The case was an awkward size to pick up, particularly when it was full of water. It probably weighed around 60-65 pounds. There was really only one person there strong enough to pick it up without… Continue reading The Body and Different Personalities
Are They Still There?
It’s been 8 months since my father died. Inside, it’s been very quiet. Almost eerily so. A quiet I’m not used to. Aside from the quietude, the headaches have been very rare. I don’t know what the relationship is between being a multiple and having headaches is, but I suspect it has something to do… Continue reading Are They Still There?
My Friend Fran
I met Fran about 6-9 months, maybe a year, after I moved to the State, I currently live in. I met her through mutual friends. She was about 40 years older than I was. The age difference didn’t matter, we developed a friendship. She lived close to me at the time. I would go visit… Continue reading My Friend Fran
The Death of My Father
I am on a group text with my remaining siblings who are still alive, as we are scattered around in different areas of the country, to get updates on what’s happening with my father. My oldest sister has been out to my father’s place. She happens to be a nurse by profession. I’m not sure… Continue reading The Death of My Father
My New Kitten is Triggering Me.
Several months ago, I adopted 2 kittens, a boy and a girl, who were 2 months old at the time. They were bonded siblings. They were at a local Humane Society satellite facility. I did spend some time together with them. The adoption coordinator told me that the girl didn’t take any shit from the… Continue reading My New Kitten is Triggering Me.
Residual Effects
I continue to feel lingering effects from my jury duty experience. What surprised me the most was the fact that I was so unprepared for this experience. Afterall, I did jury duty in another county before. Of course, in the earlier jury summons, I didn’t know I was a multiple. at that time. As a… Continue reading Residual Effects
The Castle
As I said previously, I thought the door I saw in my vision, was an old door. It had a rounded top at the top of the door. After a while, I realized that the door was a castle door. The image of myself was being small standing in front of this door. Small as… Continue reading The Castle