When the alters first began coming out and talking to the therapist we had at the time, I was not aware of who they were, what they were saying or how long they’d been out. There was no memory, just a blank spot with no idea how much time had passed. As time went on,… Continue reading Inside with the Alters
Tag: dissociation
Peter
Peter is the 7-year-old alter. I remember that it took quite a long time before he felt safe enough to come out on his own. There would be times in early therapy that Peter would “peek” out. I wasn’t aware of it, but my therapist could tell. Evidently, there was some look in my eyes… Continue reading Peter
How My Body Changes When the Others are Out.
Right now, there are several main alters: a 7-year-old boy along with his protect protector, who is in his early to mid-twenties. He is around 6′ 2 inches, maybe slightly taller, very strong and muscular. He is much stronger and taller than me. Don’t ask me how I know this, I just do. I haven’t… Continue reading How My Body Changes When the Others are Out.
The Body and Different Personalities
When I was working in a lab type of setting, I had to lift the full glass water bottles. The case was an awkward size to pick up, particularly when it was full of water. It probably weighed around 60-65 pounds. There was really only one person there strong enough to pick it up without… Continue reading The Body and Different Personalities
The Aftermath of My Father’s Death
My father has been dead for a little over a month now and things have drastically changed for me. It truly has been a blessing in disguise. While I am tempted to say it’s one of the best things to have happened to me, I feel like that’s a “bad” thing to feel and say… Continue reading The Aftermath of My Father’s Death
The Death of My Father
I am on a group text with my remaining siblings who are still alive, as we are scattered around in different areas of the country, to get updates on what’s happening with my father. My oldest sister has been out to my father’s place. She happens to be a nurse by profession. I’m not sure… Continue reading The Death of My Father
The Dutiful Daughter
I had started writing a different blog about my father and was going to write about part of this idea of being the dutiful daughter when I had a session with my massage therapist/holistic life coach. Now I’d been seeing her for about 8-10 years. The only reason I can estimate that is she once… Continue reading The Dutiful Daughter
My New Kitten is Triggering Me.
Several months ago, I adopted 2 kittens, a boy and a girl, who were 2 months old at the time. They were bonded siblings. They were at a local Humane Society satellite facility. I did spend some time together with them. The adoption coordinator told me that the girl didn’t take any shit from the… Continue reading My New Kitten is Triggering Me.
Residual Effects
I continue to feel lingering effects from my jury duty experience. What surprised me the most was the fact that I was so unprepared for this experience. Afterall, I did jury duty in another county before. Of course, in the earlier jury summons, I didn’t know I was a multiple. at that time. As a… Continue reading Residual Effects
The Castle
As I said previously, I thought the door I saw in my vision, was an old door. It had a rounded top at the top of the door. After a while, I realized that the door was a castle door. The image of myself was being small standing in front of this door. Small as… Continue reading The Castle