My father has been dead for a little over a month now and things have drastically changed for me. It truly has been a blessing in disguise. While I am tempted to say it’s one of the best things to have happened to me, I feel like that’s a “bad” thing to feel and say… Continue reading The Aftermath of My Father’s Death
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The Death of My Father
I am on a group text with my remaining siblings who are still alive, as we are scattered around in different areas of the country, to get updates on what’s happening with my father. My oldest sister has been out to my father’s place. She happens to be a nurse by profession. I’m not sure… Continue reading The Death of My Father
The Dutiful Daughter
I had started writing a different blog about my father and was going to write about part of this idea of being the dutiful daughter when I had a session with my massage therapist/holistic life coach. Now I’d been seeing her for about 8-10 years. The only reason I can estimate that is she once… Continue reading The Dutiful Daughter
My New Kitten is Triggering Me.
Several months ago, I adopted 2 kittens, a boy and a girl, who were 2 months old at the time. They were bonded siblings. They were at a local Humane Society satellite facility. I did spend some time together with them. The adoption coordinator told me that the girl didn’t take any shit from the… Continue reading My New Kitten is Triggering Me.
Residual Effects
I continue to feel lingering effects from my jury duty experience. What surprised me the most was the fact that I was so unprepared for this experience. Afterall, I did jury duty in another county before. Of course, in the earlier jury summons, I didn’t know I was a multiple. at that time. As a… Continue reading Residual Effects
The Castle
As I said previously, I thought the door I saw in my vision, was an old door. It had a rounded top at the top of the door. After a while, I realized that the door was a castle door. The image of myself was being small standing in front of this door. Small as… Continue reading The Castle
What Losing Time Feels like
As a teenager, I can remember large swaths of time missing. I had very few memories before the age of 12 . It was almost like I suddenly “hatched”, at the at age of 12. It never occurred to me there was anything wrong with that. To me, that was normal. And since I thought… Continue reading What Losing Time Feels like
More on How I Dealt with Things in the Past
In the past I had a very high pain tolerance. I remember a time when I was living with these crazy people (I should do a blog on these people!) I will do a blog about this experience., Anyway, there was a time when I put my hand on a hot stove. I don’t remember… Continue reading More on How I Dealt with Things in the Past
How I Managed Things Before Finding Out About My MPD
As I mentioned in a previous blog, I had jury duty about 20 years ago or so. At that time, I lived in a small city south of where I live now. I got called for jury duty in this county. I sat in the audience section, waiting as other people went up for questioning.… Continue reading How I Managed Things Before Finding Out About My MPD
My Massage Therapist and Jury Duty
I saw my massage therapist seeing my doctor and brought her up to speed there, my doctor did document my PTSD, dissociation and anxiety filled experience. That way, should I ever be called again, I can go to the doctor’s office and get a note excusing me from jury duty. I certainly did not expect… Continue reading My Massage Therapist and Jury Duty