Peter is the 7-year-old alter. I remember that it took quite a long time before he felt safe enough to come out on his own. There would be times in early therapy that Peter would “peek” out. I wasn’t aware of it, but my therapist could tell. Evidently, there was some look in my eyes that somebody else was there, even though I wasn’t aware of anyone being there. My therapist would ask “Who’s there?” I had no clue about that.
Anyway, before Peter came out, his protector come out and spoke to the therapist to ensure Peter would be safe. Peter’s safety was the Protector’s top priority. I have no doubt that the Protector would protect Peter all at costs. There is a place inside where Peter and the others reside. I will cover that in another blog.
As I said before, Peter is 7 and will always be 7 years old. He absolutely loves yellow dandelions. He’s so excited when he sees one when we are out hiking or even in our yard. His goal is to have an entire yard filled with dandelions! I try to mow around some of them though, to keep them up for him so they go to seed.
He is so pure and innocent. And quite spiritual too. He has no anger and harbors no ill will towards anyone. He had some fear when he first came out, some of that may have been due to him never being out before. I’m sure he’d been “peaking” out now and then during early period of therapy. He would wring his hands, as if there was some sort of substance on them that he couldn’t get off. And something he felt responsible for (or at least had been told it was his fault). But once he let go of all of that stuff, he began to change and his true self started to come through.
I wasn’t co-conscious with him at first, but I am now. When he comes out, I can feel my body getting smaller. I have learned that the body responds to whoever is out, even if it’s just me. That is leading me on my current quest of learning how to heal my body. It reminds me of the saying “physician heal thyself”. So that’s where my next journey takes me.
Next up: Inside