PT.1
I was talking to my massage therapist during a Life Coaching session (who by the way is really good at that, but more on that later) and I believe we touched on the subject of what’s blocking me, or something like that. I could be wrong, but that’s the gist of it. At any rate, we were talking about blocks, I think relating to the family and my resistance to the “truth”, i.e., that yes, they were involved.
See the post “What does it mean when parents abuse their children.” for more info.
My massage therapist had me do this exercise to determine what is blocking me. I became aware of 3 strings attached to my back: one in the upper back, one in the middle and one in the lower back. I thought the one in the middle would be the hardest to get to, though I didn’t know why. Heck, I didn’t even know what was on the other side of the string blocking me.
As it turned out, the first string (at the top of the back) was from the church I grew up in: the Catholic church. I attended church every Sunday, along with the other required church dates. I also had to attend Catechism for quite a number of years, which completed the indoctrination. Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against those who like the Catholic church today. I had issues with it, which is why I consider myself an ex-Catholic.
Anyway, back to the church. My local church was big on “honor thy father and mother.”
And it’s that part of the Catholic church that was one of the strings that needed to be cut. How can you honor a father and mother that abuse you? That affected me for decades.
So, during the life coaching session, my massage therapist/life coach went through and exercise with me to cut that “tie that bound me.” It was necessary to remove that string by “cutting it,” metaphorically speaking. And that’s exactly what we did.
After the exercise I immediately felt relief from the church, which I felt conflicted for so long. I no longer had the church’s teaching in my head. It was quite a freeing experience.
I realized during the session however that there were 2 more strings attached to me. More on that part later.