I don’t remember how this came up during a life coaching session with my massage therapist, but I brought up the feeling and idea of the Last Door. There has been much resistance and feeling like there was something else coming up. And it has been that way for a while. All I knew was… Continue reading The Last Door
My Father and Bill Cosby
When Bill Cosby was on tv with his show in the late 80’s-early 90’s. he was considered “America’s Dad”. His show was called The Bill Cosby show, and his family was called the “Huxtables”. A middle-class black family with a father who was a fine upstanding member of the community. There was no torture no… Continue reading My Father and Bill Cosby
What Losing Time Feels like
As a teenager, I can remember large swaths of time missing. I had very few memories before the age of 12 . It was almost like I suddenly “hatched”, at the at age of 12. It never occurred to me there was anything wrong with that. To me, that was normal. And since I thought… Continue reading What Losing Time Feels like
More on How I Dealt with Things in the Past
In the past I had a very high pain tolerance. I remember a time when I was living with these crazy people (I should do a blog on these people!) I will do a blog about this experience., Anyway, there was a time when I put my hand on a hot stove. I don’t remember… Continue reading More on How I Dealt with Things in the Past
How I Managed Things Before Finding Out About My MPD
As I mentioned in a previous blog, I had jury duty about 20 years ago or so. At that time, I lived in a small city south of where I live now. I got called for jury duty in this county. I sat in the audience section, waiting as other people went up for questioning.… Continue reading How I Managed Things Before Finding Out About My MPD
My Massage Therapist and Jury Duty
I saw my massage therapist seeing my doctor and brought her up to speed there, my doctor did document my PTSD, dissociation and anxiety filled experience. That way, should I ever be called again, I can go to the doctor’s office and get a note excusing me from jury duty. I certainly did not expect… Continue reading My Massage Therapist and Jury Duty
The Damage from Jury Duty
I didn’t realize while sitting in the jury box that I was dissociating. Once I was dismissed, I proceeded to go home. Jury duty was on a Monday. I was off Tuesday and went back to work on Wednesday. I was anxious and tense, particularly when other coworkers came into the room I worked in.… Continue reading The Damage from Jury Duty
More on Jury Duty
PT.3 As I was sitting in the jury box waiting for questions from both sides, `I looked at the defendant. and discovered his family was sitting in the audience section of the courtroom. I was calm at this point as nothing had happened yet. It was a rare moment of calm which didn’t last long.… Continue reading More on Jury Duty
JURY DUTY
PT.2 The person in charge of the jury, seated me. There were 2 forms in front of me to fill out. My hands were shaking so bad that I had trouble filling out the juror form. I think it was barely legible. Normally. I’m not aware of my hand tremors, though other people are. In… Continue reading JURY DUTY
Jury Duty
PT. 1 Several months ago, I received in the mail an initial qualification from the county jury office. I filled it out and sent it back. A couple of months later, I received a jury summons. I was to call on a certain day. My intuition told me that it would be Monday (My jury… Continue reading Jury Duty