I took my cat Bonnie Raitt out for a walk on a Friday afternoon on her leash (it’s the only way they go outside). She was fine, happily going into the backyard munching grass. She was fine. I had noticed though, she’d lost a little bit of weight, but I wasn’t too concerned. I didn’t… Continue reading An Unexpected Death
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Why am I afraid to let people help me?
I work full time for this company. My particular department is small, only consisting of a handful of people. I trained all of the other people who work in this department. There are 2 shifts. Right now, there are 2 people to cover M-F for each shift. My co-worker works with me on Tuesday, Wednesday,… Continue reading Why am I afraid to let people help me?
Cutting the Strings
PT.1 I was talking to my massage therapist during a Life Coaching session (who by the way is really good at that, but more on that later) and I believe we touched on the subject of what’s blocking me, or something like that. I could be wrong, but that’s the gist of it. At any… Continue reading Cutting the Strings
TIME
I believe time is a man-made invention, at least from my perspective. Most people, I think, believe that time is linear. And it may be for them. For me, however, time is not linear. I’ve heard of some people having no sense of direction (my massage therapist for one!). Me, however, I have no concept… Continue reading TIME
Untethered
I was listening to a psychic medium on you tube, when the host mentioned a book entitled “The Untethered Soul.” It immediately piqued my interest. My massage therapist had that book. So I went to go buy it. It was the last copy at the store. What it means to me after talking to the… Continue reading Untethered
More on Suicidal Thoughts
PT3 While I only tried to kill myself only once, the suicidal ideation continued for years (decades!). One example of this was I would play “chicken” with cars. Crossing the road while a car was coming, luckily, I never got hit. But that was one example of my strong desire to die without committing suicide.… Continue reading More on Suicidal Thoughts
Overcoming Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself
PT2 One thing I will say about my unsuccessful suicide attempt, was that it wasn’t my exit point. That’s a recent revelation on my part and I will be going into it in a future post. At any rate, it was not my time to go, hence the unsuccessful attempt. I did not know that… Continue reading Overcoming Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself
First my cat, then my younger brother.
I initially began this post regarding the death of my beloved old man cat, who I had to put down shortly before Thanksgiving (U.S. holiday). It was quite an affair for me. Then I found out later that my younger brother had died. He was 4 years younger than me. His death was unexpected. In… Continue reading First my cat, then my younger brother.
More on How My Cat Triggered Me.
My new cat Stevie came from a horrible neglectful situation. And it was that neglect that triggered me. I wasn’t sure what about his situation triggered me, so I went online to investigate (the internet can be good for some things)! Anyway, I decided to research the difference between abuse and neglect. At that point… Continue reading More on How My Cat Triggered Me.
How my new cat triggered me.
About a month ago I went over to the local humane society to see about adopting a cat. My beloved cat had died during the pandemic, and I was getting “cat fever” to get another one. My initial intention was to get 2 kittens so they could be together. That is not what ended up… Continue reading How my new cat triggered me.