Several months ago, I adopted 2 kittens, a boy and a girl, who were 2 months old at the time. They were bonded siblings. They were at a local Humane Society satellite facility. I did spend some time together with them. The adoption coordinator told me that the girl didn’t take any shit from the… Continue reading My New Kitten is Triggering Me.
Category: abuse
The Last Door
I don’t remember how this came up during a life coaching session with my massage therapist, but I brought up the feeling and idea of the Last Door. There has been much resistance and feeling like there was something else coming up. And it has been that way for a while. All I knew was… Continue reading The Last Door
More on How I Dealt with Things in the Past
In the past I had a very high pain tolerance. I remember a time when I was living with these crazy people (I should do a blog on these people!) I will do a blog about this experience., Anyway, there was a time when I put my hand on a hot stove. I don’t remember… Continue reading More on How I Dealt with Things in the Past
More on Jury Duty
PT.3 As I was sitting in the jury box waiting for questions from both sides, `I looked at the defendant. and discovered his family was sitting in the audience section of the courtroom. I was calm at this point as nothing had happened yet. It was a rare moment of calm which didn’t last long.… Continue reading More on Jury Duty
How a Coworkers family death triggered me
I work in a very small department in my company. I work 4–10 hour days, with 3 of those days working with 1 other person. I get along really well with this person. In fact, we talk an awful lot about stuff. It’s funny, because outside of work we would never even cross paths. But… Continue reading How a Coworkers family death triggered me
TIME
I believe time is a man-made invention, at least from my perspective. Most people, I think, believe that time is linear. And it may be for them. For me, however, time is not linear. I’ve heard of some people having no sense of direction (my massage therapist for one!). Me, however, I have no concept… Continue reading TIME
Untethered
I was listening to a psychic medium on you tube, when the host mentioned a book entitled “The Untethered Soul.” It immediately piqued my interest. My massage therapist had that book. So I went to go buy it. It was the last copy at the store. What it means to me after talking to the… Continue reading Untethered
More on Suicidal Thoughts
PT3 While I only tried to kill myself only once, the suicidal ideation continued for years (decades!). One example of this was I would play “chicken” with cars. Crossing the road while a car was coming, luckily, I never got hit. But that was one example of my strong desire to die without committing suicide.… Continue reading More on Suicidal Thoughts
Overcoming Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself
PT2 One thing I will say about my unsuccessful suicide attempt, was that it wasn’t my exit point. That’s a recent revelation on my part and I will be going into it in a future post. At any rate, it was not my time to go, hence the unsuccessful attempt. I did not know that… Continue reading Overcoming Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself
How I Overcame Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself
I went to an in-state college not too far from my hometown. I was so unprepared for college life, actually, life in general, I did not have to skills to deal with everyday life. At the same time, there were things going on underneath the surface which I was not aware of. And I would… Continue reading How I Overcame Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself