PT3 While I only tried to kill myself only once, the suicidal ideation continued for years (decades!). One example of this was I would play “chicken” with cars. Crossing the road while a car was coming, luckily, I never got hit. But that was one example of my strong desire to die without committing suicide.… Continue reading More on Suicidal Thoughts
Overcoming Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself
PT2 One thing I will say about my unsuccessful suicide attempt, was that it wasn’t my exit point. That’s a recent revelation on my part and I will be going into it in a future post. At any rate, it was not my time to go, hence the unsuccessful attempt. I did not know that… Continue reading Overcoming Decades of Wanting to Kill Myself
More on How My Cat Triggered Me.
My new cat Stevie came from a horrible neglectful situation. And it was that neglect that triggered me. I wasn’t sure what about his situation triggered me, so I went online to investigate (the internet can be good for some things)! Anyway, I decided to research the difference between abuse and neglect. At that point… Continue reading More on How My Cat Triggered Me.
The Body and Dissociation
One of the things I’d read about (again, before, the internet!) was how the body could change depending on which alter was out, or in control. One alter could have a particular food allergy for example, while no other alters had that issue. I was not aware of how dissociation affected me and my body… Continue reading The Body and Dissociation
The Death of My Father
I am on a group text with my remaining siblings who are still alive, as we are scattered around in different areas of the country, to get updates on what’s happening with my father. My oldest sister has been out to my father’s place. She happens to be a nurse by profession. I’m not sure… Continue reading The Death of My Father
The Dutiful Daughter
I had started writing a different blog about my father and was going to write about part of this idea of being the dutiful daughter when I had a session with my massage therapist/holistic life coach. Now I’d been seeing her for about 8-10 years. The only reason I can estimate that is she once… Continue reading The Dutiful Daughter
More On My Father, PT.3
Last Saturday, I received a group text stating that my father was doing okay, though he had lost a lot of weight and gets confused at times. He evidently likes to talk on the phone and talks about me often. They said they were going to call me until they realized the time difference didn’t… Continue reading More On My Father, PT.3
My Dying Father, PT.2
As things turned out, I had the initial date wrong. The date my father went into hospice was January 4th. In late December, my father celebrated his birthday. Evidently, he thought he was turning 100 (99 actually), so my siblings threw him a 100-year-old b-day party. Through text messages, I learned that not long after… Continue reading My Dying Father, PT.2
My Dying Father
We interrupt the normally schedule blog for a special breaking blog. I was actually working on another blog to publish when this came up very, very recently. I hope to get back to that one, eventually. I had left work to meet a plumber at my house when I had gotten a text. As an… Continue reading My Dying Father
A Few More Phobia Details
When I write these blog posts, I generally don’t write the entire thing in one day. It can take several days or even longer, depending on what’s going on with me. I mention this because of a talk I recently had with my massage therapist/spiritual life coach, after I had written the previous post. My… Continue reading A Few More Phobia Details
More on Phobias
As I was writing up the first part, I suddenly remembered that there was another time I had a panic attack. I had a meeting in the basement of a church. When I went to this get-together, I had no idea it was in the basement of a church. As soon as I got into… Continue reading More on Phobias
A Phobia Uncovered
In the state I born in, I went to an in-state college. I was 18 years old. I went to the bookstore to get my list of books I needed for the semester, and I proceeded to the checkout. I had my checkbook out to write a check (no credit cards for college students then),… Continue reading A Phobia Uncovered
More On My Relationships with Animals
When I was in my early to mid-twenties, I worked with animals. One of my duties was to take care of a colony of breeding dogs. There were probably 5 or 6 pairs of breeding animals along with pregnant mothers, who were in separate cages. When I initially began to take care of the animals,… Continue reading More On My Relationships with Animals
My Relationship with Animals
When I was a teenager, I discovered that I could communicate with my cat at the time. I don’t remember how I discovered this. but when I tried it, it did work. We did have dogs at the time, but I did not see if I could communicate with them at that time. Our cat,… Continue reading My Relationship with Animals